This is me. Truly only me. A girl trying her luck in the big city. Trying to achieve her dream. Trying to challenge herself to the limit. The journey is precious. The journey is priceless. Let the journey begin ...
I pray that he finds me on his path to recovery and that we are able to love each other once again. Please Lord God, help my love heal himself and through that find clarity, and find our love again.
I pray that deep down God gives my love the clarity to realise his love for me, and shows him which path to take to get back to me. And that God day by day opens his heart to realise that.
I pray that God places within his heart the desire and longing to miss me and miss what we had. I cherish him so much, please God make him feel the longing to be with me again.
Please, I just pray that God does His miraculous work between us and draws us back together as I know that we are meant be. We broke up before and God brought us back together. I have never been more thankful. Now I have even more faith and belief in Him and I know that my love is my fate, the one I am meant to journey through life with.
I pray that God will heal both our hearts, and fix our relationship, and bring us together.... I really love my sweetheart so much. He has my heart. I hope that God works on his heart to forgive me when I let him down, and give me the strength to lift him up.
Please take my broken soul, broken life and broken heart and mend them again by bringing back my love. Please Lord.
I saw someone post this quote and I am holding it close to my heart, to enhance my faith in the Lord and all that he does for me in my life: "Ask and you shall recieve, knock and a door will answer"
I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go. I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know. And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I'll say, but I'll never stop loving you, each and every day.
Hold me like I am the last person you want in your arms. Kiss me like it is gonna be the last kiss your ever going to taste. Hug me like you want me forever. But most of all…. Love me like I am the one you always dreamed of.
How can I forget you when your always on my mind, How can I not want you when your all I want inside, How can I let you go when I can’t see us apart, How can I not love you when you are controlling my heart.
Simply Quotes: "It’s always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn’t even remember the things they’ve been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can’t seem to remember me at all."
IFeelYou_Quotes (IFeelYou_Quotes) on Twitter: "Smile, so the tears won't fallLaugh, like you don't hurt at allFake it so he'll never know...That you still haven't let him go.."
I’ll reach for your hand in the cold of winter, I’ll reach for your hand in the heat of summer. But if my short life can’t reach the dawn of spring, I promise, in heaven, I’ll reach you with my wings.
You don't know You can't see What really goes on Inside of me My eyes shield How I feel inside You don't know How much I've cried My mouth restricts What I'd really say And make you think I'm perfectly okay I know you tried You mean well But I have things I'd never tell To truly laugh To really smile Is something I haven't Done in a while You'll never know How I really feel I don't know how long It will take to heal. Just know that I still love you After everything That I've been through. You'll never see Inside my mind I'm protecting you From what you'd find. I protect you because I love you so. This is my pain You'll never know.
My friends are always telling me to move on, to give up. But why? Why should I? They don't see you the way that I see you. They don't look into your eyes and see the world. Why would they understand? They can't possibly imagine what it means to look at your best friend and see all their hopes and dreams come true. I wish for once, just once, they could walk a mile in my shoes. But they wouldn't need to walk that far, they would just take one step and suddenly, they would take back every bit of 'getting over you' advice they had ever given me and realize you're my life, you were meant for me, and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option
if it helps you figure me out,
i take you for who you are..
i'm sorry for whatever has happened,
but i will be there for you,
and i may not say the right thing all the time,
but i always mean it...
i want to be with you, sex or not...
it's not the act that makes me want you...
it is you as a person,
the way you make me smile,
the way you make me laugh,
the way i feel when you lay next to me...
it's you... i can't ask for anything more...
I'd rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else.
I'd rather be beside you in a storm,
than safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart.
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.
Love is like grass.
If you fall on it,
it may leave a stain
and some temporary pain.
But you’ll get over the pain,
it will eventually stop hurting.
Now maybe the stain ruined
your favorite pair of jeans,
or maybe it was
nothing special that was ruined,
but either way
the stain remains there.
And with time,
it will begin to fade,
but it will always be there,
a permanent reminder that you,
too, once fell.
Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest
and it opens up your heart
and it means that someone
can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses,
you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you,
then one stupid person,
no different from
any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day,
like kiss you or smile at you,
and then your life
isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and
leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like
'maybe we should be just friends'
turns into a glass splinter
working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.
Sometimes you've got to get hurt
in order to grow,
Sometimes our visions seem clearer
after our eyes are washed out with tears
Have a good cry,
wash out your heart
If you keep it inside
it'll tear you apart.
Sometimes you lose,
but you're going to win
if you just hang in.
People said truth always hurt. It was. What I thought was the nicest dream ever turned out to be the same nightmare I used to have. And that hurts me a lot when I had to go through the same thing again. I thought he was the one but apparently not. He was NEVER mine from the start. All the things he said were all lies. Said he loved me and he meant it. Said he missed me. Said he needed me. Said he was crazy for me. Said he won't leave me. Begged me to come back. Everything were lies. He even said that he won't be going after her, but that itself was a lie as well.
Everything that happened seems so familiar. Everything that happened feels deja vu. It's like history is repeating itself and it sucks. The only thing that I feared most in my life, I have to face it again. All the time, I asked myself why was I stupid enough to fall in love with him and left everything that I have just for him only to find out that he was just fooling around with me. Am I really that bad until I don't deserve anything at all?
Last week when I found out the whole entire truth, I felt myself falling down hard. Harder than what Ady did to me. I let go of everything that I have and came back for him and all I got was nothing. Maybe my heart was right not to trust him. Maybe my mind was right to be doubtful. Maybe my instinct was right to be insecure.
Angry as I am right now, I felt disappointed at the same time. Disappointed by the way things are. If only I know from the beginning that he never meant what he said, I wouldn't have love him at all. Now I have to pick up the pieces, stand up and be strong again. Being here on my own, alone will be even harder. But one thing I know, despite wherever I am, I am so blessed because I have friends behind me ready to catch me when I fall.
Right now, I am going to arrange my next move. I'm planning to go back and leave everything here. That's the best way I could do for now. To move on and forget about him totally. When that day comes, the truth will have to be revealed. The worms will be out of the can. The beans will be spilled. The cat will be out of the bag. Worse part is, it is going to be ugly. Daddy will definitely scold me to the max.
Now, I have to be stronger than strong. I have to fill my life with so much courage and strength. Start a new chapter in my life. Forget the lying bastard.
Last Monday was what supposed to be our 5th month anniversary but everything is just gone now. My heart is still not healed. I doubt it can ever be heal. Even if it takes my whole life. I still find myself crying whenever I'm alone. I still find myself crying to sleep. How can I ever be happy again? How can I find back my old self? Will I ever find that back? Will I ever see the sun shine again?
I don't know what else to do anymore. This time I don't know if I can ever stand up and walk again. I can put a brave face in front of everybody. I can pretend I am alright. But the truth is, I'm not. I'm hurting inside. Why is life so unfair? Why can't I get the happiness I deserve? What did I do wrong in my entire life that I don't deserve to have some happiness?
I often wish she would just leave me alone last time. That she would just accept his rejection and leave the both of us alone. That she should just focus on her own family and leave him alone. That she won't be such a bitch. But like what Babah said, she is what she's made off.
Everything that happen right now, everything I'm going through is like deja vu. It's like history is repeating itself all over again. I'm wearing our ring around my neck as a symbol to give me strength, to give me hope, to help me be strong but I can't. I tried. God knows how much I tried. I prayed and prayed until I cried in my prayers that things will go back to the way it used to be. Acu said God will help those who help themselves. Please God, give him back to me. Soften his heart and guide him back home. That is all I ask from You. I have got nothing else already. Please hear my prayers, O Lord.
Have anyone ever tell you that sometimes it's too late to regret everything has ever happen to you? Maybe it is true. By the time you realise the truth, it is already far too late to turn things around. That's what happened to me. I think my life is a curse. I can't settle down with anyone without getting hurt or heartbroken.
Questions about what happened still plays in my head over and over again. Why is she doing this to me? What have I done to her that she keep doing this to me? Does she feel peace everytime she insults me? Does she find satisfaction when she's trying to break someone's relationship? Just because he left her when he found out she's married, she thought that no one else should get him as well because she couldn't? Now, it is officially over between the both of us, she must be feeling on top of the world.
Although questions still plays in my head, I came to realise the truth. But it's too late for me to turn back. It's really too late for me to say "I'm sorry." He was telling me the truth all along and I failed to see it because I was so afraid. I was blinded by my fear. The fear from the previous relationship with Ady still sticks in my head. Those words which he told Aida sticks in my head till now and I was afraid that I might have to walk through the paths I walked before.
I guess it's too late for me to redeem myself to him again. The day when he said it's over was the day I felt I rather die than live without a purpose. Every night I asked myself why is life so unfair? What have I done wrong in my life that I had to go through all of this? Why do God lead me straight into his arms and let him fill my life with so much love just to find out He's taking him away from me?
I don't know how to go on through my days from today. I don't know how to tell my family that it's completely over between the both of us. Daddy will be furious for sure. He never wanted me to come back. If I hadn't beg him to let me come back, I don't think I'll ever be back here. All the time, I've been locking myself in the room and cried until I have no more tears left to cry. Then, suddenly I stop praying. I don't know what is the purpose for me to pray anymore. Looking at the ring and my anklet he gave back makes it even sadder. Everytime I looked at it, I had to tell myself it's really over. It's really over. There's nothing left for me. There's no more space for me in his heart. He has let me go and I am back to the place where I was before we found each other back last year.
I got lost too far away. I went astray for so long. I need to find the way back myself and I hope I can find back the missing girl he fell in love with 15 years ago. The one everybody knew. That girl has gone missing for a very long time. I hope when I found her back, I will have peace in my life.
Last Saturday was 1 week after our separation. I thought it will still hurt but I don't feel anything. I thought I will still be crying but I guess I have no more tears to cry. I guess this is really the end. I'm picking up the pieces and move on. Throughout the entire week, I've been thinking and saw the things that hurt me most. Then on Saturday night, I made up my mind. I'm very tired of thinking.
Memories will always remain in my mind. Those good times we had together. Those conversations we had together. It will always be with me.
I will always remember the day he sang this song to me. Now, it will be just a memory.
I found this song earlier and the lyrics just got me on the spot. It's a cover made by Leona Lewis from Oasis song. I have yet to hear the original version but I like this song and the lyrics as well.
Wassup y'all. Let's talk about everything that we all like and we all hate, shall we? Food, Travel, Movies ... anything. Let's have some fun together. Til then ...
