Goodbye 2009 ... Welcome 2010

Another gone by. It's the end of another year. The end of another chapter. Some people may would want to look back at ponder what have they achieve or maybe did they manage to fulfill their New Year resolution. A lot of things happen to me this year. Not so good ones mostly. I don't know if I should ever look back and think about it again.

Not only people are celebrating the year end, I  guess I'll be celebrating my monthsary (if there is such a word). I made it through for the past 1 month being apart from G. The feeling of torn apart is still there. The tears is still there. I don't know how long I can be stronger than strong. Everytime when things happen in my life, I have to pick myself up and be strong. Now, when I thought I don't have to be strong, I found telling myself just to be strong. And at that point of time, I found out why most people said that long distance relationship never works. There's too many challenges. Too many temptations around us. But at the end of the day, it is up to you whether or not you're strong enough to battle it away.

I don't know what to expect from 2010. I seriously don't know. The only thing that I do know, I hope that my decision to go back for good just to be with him is not the biggest mistake I've made. I know that I cannot have everything and that I have to sacrifice something in order to get another thing. I'm willing to sacrifice my dream in order to be with him and the only thing I wish right now is that I am not making a huge mistake for it.

Christmas Theme

It's Christmas time again. Feels that time flew really fast. Seems like only yesterday we celebrated New Year and here we are again...celebrating Christmas. Mid Valley's Christmas theme this year is all about castle.

 

 

 

 

 

My Christmas this year will be totally different. It's my 1st Christmas together with G and I hope it won't be the last. 

A new beginning

After a year of heartbreaking moments and endless teary nights, I finally found someone who love me for real. Surprising as it is, I guess I ought to be thankful. It's true what people said. You never know that the right person is right next to you until you fall flat on your face.

I can't believe G actually waited for me for 14 years. Who would wait for someone that long? That's a decade and a half. I guess I was touched by this and besides, I wanted to take my chances. Like what Acu said, if he's really the one for me, that's great. If he isn't, then at least I gave it a shot.

Daddy and mummy knew about this and as expected, it didn't went well. Daddy wanted me to find someone who has the same education level. That of course dampen my spirit but G was optimistic. Besides, so what if that person has a higher education level but I'm not happy? At the end of the day, it is whether I'm genuinely happy or force myself to be happy for the sake of my parents.

Long distance relationship really tested the both of us. I was never a fan of long distance relationship. There are too much pain than sweetness in it. But for the sake of G and my new beginning with him, I have to be stronger than strong. If I can go through hell, I think I can go through this. As much as I love him every single day, I had to be strong.