Goodbye 2009 ... Welcome 2010

Another gone by. It's the end of another year. The end of another chapter. Some people may would want to look back at ponder what have they achieve or maybe did they manage to fulfill their New Year resolution. A lot of things happen to me this year. Not so good ones mostly. I don't know if I should ever look back and think about it again.

Not only people are celebrating the year end, I  guess I'll be celebrating my monthsary (if there is such a word). I made it through for the past 1 month being apart from G. The feeling of torn apart is still there. The tears is still there. I don't know how long I can be stronger than strong. Everytime when things happen in my life, I have to pick myself up and be strong. Now, when I thought I don't have to be strong, I found telling myself just to be strong. And at that point of time, I found out why most people said that long distance relationship never works. There's too many challenges. Too many temptations around us. But at the end of the day, it is up to you whether or not you're strong enough to battle it away.

I don't know what to expect from 2010. I seriously don't know. The only thing that I do know, I hope that my decision to go back for good just to be with him is not the biggest mistake I've made. I know that I cannot have everything and that I have to sacrifice something in order to get another thing. I'm willing to sacrifice my dream in order to be with him and the only thing I wish right now is that I am not making a huge mistake for it.

Christmas Theme

It's Christmas time again. Feels that time flew really fast. Seems like only yesterday we celebrated New Year and here we are again...celebrating Christmas. Mid Valley's Christmas theme this year is all about castle.

 

 

 

 

 

My Christmas this year will be totally different. It's my 1st Christmas together with G and I hope it won't be the last. 

A new beginning

After a year of heartbreaking moments and endless teary nights, I finally found someone who love me for real. Surprising as it is, I guess I ought to be thankful. It's true what people said. You never know that the right person is right next to you until you fall flat on your face.

I can't believe G actually waited for me for 14 years. Who would wait for someone that long? That's a decade and a half. I guess I was touched by this and besides, I wanted to take my chances. Like what Acu said, if he's really the one for me, that's great. If he isn't, then at least I gave it a shot.

Daddy and mummy knew about this and as expected, it didn't went well. Daddy wanted me to find someone who has the same education level. That of course dampen my spirit but G was optimistic. Besides, so what if that person has a higher education level but I'm not happy? At the end of the day, it is whether I'm genuinely happy or force myself to be happy for the sake of my parents.

Long distance relationship really tested the both of us. I was never a fan of long distance relationship. There are too much pain than sweetness in it. But for the sake of G and my new beginning with him, I have to be stronger than strong. If I can go through hell, I think I can go through this. As much as I love him every single day, I had to be strong.

First posting via mobile

So many exciting things happened during the absence postings. But first, I found a new job. Finally after 3 months. Feels so good about it. Now, I have to train my eyes not to sleep too much. This is going to be fun & exciting. I can't wait.

Another thing that happened was I was chosen to be a brand ambassador for a skincare product. Weird, isn't it? I've completely forgotten that I actually applied for it & out of nowhere the girl send me an email saying I was chosen. But of course, she will need to meet me before she could confirm anything. Interesting, isn't it?

Owh...this posting was fully done via my phone. My super canggih phone. Didn't regret getting it.

I have to stop here. Til then...

It's all coming back to me

Like a broken record, it's all coming back to me again. Things happened last year. Things I went through started flashing in front of my eyes like some movie. The first time is the last time.

How can I forget all those moments in life? Should I run and hide? Just so that I can forget everything happened before?

Novel update

http://www.kakinovel.com/PgSenaraiDisplay55.asp?G=&GV=458&PageIndex=3&GFB=Ulasan&ItemPerPage=5&BtnBack=1And so I'm still writing my novel. Last Saturday I went over to the bookstore just to get a BM storybook. Just to learn and see how the way the authors write. The book that I got was rather interesting. The way the author wrote it was rather simple as well. The plot and storyline was simple yet touching. It's all about everyone's everyday of life. It's all about the love story about a girl and it could happen to just anyone. It may not be the best book or a book written by Jefferey Archer or Sidney Sheldon or any other best-selling authors but I believe even Malaysian authors can go further as well.

For a sneak peak of the book I bought and read, here is Cintaku Satu by Emy Hazza.

First Attempt

Today I made my first attempt to write in BM after receiving so many requests. I never wrote anything in BM before so the feeling is a bit weird, hard and not to mention SLOWcompare to writing in English. But it's good to be a versatile. Writing in both languages is a good preparation. Who knows one day, I will have to write things in BM.

I'm done with the prologue. Now still cracking my head how to write the first chapter. I may want to change a lot of things and the draft could ended up with so many drafts. The plot is very simple. It's the everyday life of anyone and it's totally fictional. I really hope I can pull this through and hopefully I could sell it to some publishing house.

Let's just wait along the way and see how it goes. It could be fun. I have the girls to do proof reading on it so this should be fun.

Tangisan Hari Lebaran

Midnite blogging

I'm waiting for my eyes to slowly closing down and while waiting I was thinking why not drop some words here. I've been writing whole day and I'm still not tired of writing. It's true what people said. If you are doing something you love, you can just go on and on and on without feeling tired.

Today ...or was it yesterday (since it's already 00:27) was Boy's burfday. I feel that we grew up too fast. Feels like only yesterday the both of us playing under the house with his mom shouting at us to go up and don't play under the house. And then there she was feeding the both of us using the same plate. And then there she was making us go to sleep. When mummy forgot to put my milk bottle into the bag, aunty would make me use his milk bottle. We actually shared milk bottle at one point. Hahahha. If I can travel through time, I'd like to relive those moments again. The thoughts of my childhood can easily brings a smile on my face.

Me...what would happen to me? It's still very much a mystery. Mystery of life. So what they say. If only we know what is going to happen to us in the future, then it won't be called a mystery. Take everything 1 step at a time. That is what everyone has been telling. Maybe there is some truth behind it. If we take everything all in one go, then there will be no thrill and no surprise.

Let's just hope and pray that the sun will continue to shine and blessings keep coming in.

Kek Lapis Sarawak

It's that time again. The most spoken Kek Lapis Sarawak. I'm taking in orders from today until ....errr....before all of you balik kampung. Spread the news. Spread the love.

First day as an article writer

My first day as an article writer went pretty well. I got RM10 for today. A good start for a newbie. I learnt a lot today. Hope that would make me improve and be a better writer. Writing again was so much fun. I never thought I would write again after so long.

This morning I managed to dig up my old stories I posted on Winglin. I even told Jackie about the stories I wrote. Just looking back at the stories made me wanting to write more than just article, product review or web content. I want to write stories again. Stories that touched everyone's heart like I used to. And who knows I can get my stories publish and make it into a book.

Just in case one day I would like to read my work again.

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/cookiemonster/ <= this is the 1st one. Not really that awesome.

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/twinklestarr/ <= the 2nd one. Was ok

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/synergy/ <= this is the last one.

My first biggest step

It's going to be a week since I last tendered my resignation and enjoying life to the max. It's the biggest step I have ever taken in my life so far. And not to mention... unprepared. The decision was actually in my head for some time but I guess I don't have enough courage to go for it until last week.

So how was it being unemployed? Well, it was fun and very relax. No stress. No more skipping meals. No one to chase you left and right. It is ... peaceful. Very peaceful. Although, I miss my colleagues once in a while. I missed our usual gossip. I missed my usual free Thai and Pinoy language lesson. What can I say. I was pushed to the limits. Everything that happened was just too much. I lose weight. I skipped too many meals. It's just getting too bad. It used to make me happy. My previous position. And now it doesn't anymore. I felt miserable every single day and my guts were struggling to get free.

Now that I'm officially unemployed, I have the whole time in the whole world. While waiting for another next opportunity, I'm going to do some freelancing. At least there will be some money coming in while waiting.

Gone a good film director ... A tribute to Yasmin Ahmad

I personally do not know her. Never met her. Never understand her movies. But I do understand her message in all her work. I remembered all the Petronas TVCs that she made. Very touching. I hate to admit it but I shed tears when I 1st saw the 2006 Hari Raya TVC. It's just too moving. It totally speaks of modern day children. I remembered the day the CD of the Hari Raya and Deepavali TVC came to my hand. I watched both TVC over and over again until I get goosebumps. It's just too moving.

And last night, one of the countries great film director passed away peacefully. Her work will be deeply missed. Her legacy will continue. There'll be no one to do a moving Petronas TVC like she did. No matter a festive one or a Merdeka one.

Here are sets of Petronas TVCs that I remembered and worked with.

2006 : Chinese New Year, Merdeka, Hari Raya and Deepavali









Rest in Peace Yasmin .... we will never forget you and your great work

Chapter 31 begins in 7 more days

It's going to be a lonely one this year. Lonely and a bit weird. But I'll manage....I think. It's always the same every year. Lonely....alone. Just that there's no one close to the heart. No one will call me at 12 midnite sharp just to sing Happy Birthday song. It's just going to be me, myself and I all by myself in my room in my house. Am I going to be sad? Yes, I am. But that's the truth now. That's how it's going to be. That's the reality.

Being 31 is like a dream. I never thought myself being 30 when I was little. I never made plans on what to do, where am I going to be, who am I going to be. And when the time comes, I can't believe I was already 30. The mark of mid-life. A stage of life where everyone said you get your total freedom. A stage where everyone would say "I'm having a mid-life crisis".

Oh well...I guess I'll have to swallow everything. Sad or happy. Tragic or untragic. Life has to move on. I will have to forget about "I have everything in life but I have no one to share it with". I'm afterall....Single and Happy.

Trip down to SG

This is going to be a travelogue from yours truly.

I flew in via Tiger Airways on their 1st flight out from LCCT. The plane...i think it's a bit smaller than Air Asia but the seats are much better than Air Asia. Air Asia seats are like trying to make you sit in a proper sitting position. Remember how our mothers told us always to sit up straight. That is how Air Asia seats are. But Tiger was in a slightly relax position. The stewardess uniform was the simplest uniform I've ever seen in my whole entire life flying here and there. They only wore a yellow t-shirt, a pair of black jeans, a tiger stripe scarf and their name tag. I guess if they are not on duty, they can just go out wearing that and no one would guess they are Tiger's stewardess. Very very simple.

So I left KL in an early morning rain. I was so scared that my flight will be delayed but apparently they flew on time. Sharp 8:45am. There was a bit of turbulence because of the bad weather in KL but later on, it was ok. And on the plane, I was wearing my mask because dear Celine asked me to wear the mask inside the flight. While the plane were having some turbulence, and my mask was on I felt suffocated the entire journey. All for the sake of Celine.

After about 50 mins flight, I landed at Changi T3 and the evening that I arrived, Singapore started raining heavily. It kinda spoil the whole plan to walk around. But me and Aida managed to spend time just sitting at the riverbank while waiting for the rain to stop. It was so nice and relaxing just to sit there and do nothing. The view...priceless.

One day I would stay at the Fullerton's Hotel. The most expensive hotel in SG. But for now, I can only see it from far ...

Another priceless view

The building across the river is exquisite. It's very colonial. I can just stay there and look at it for a very long time without getting bored.

Oh...I must write about the hotel I stayed on Sunday. It's call The Royal Peacock Hotel. The whole environment around that place makes me feel as if I'm staying in Melaka. Because of the old architecture and building. It's so authentic and historic. My room was just nice for 1 person only. Just like what they advertised. The bed was like a sleigh so I felt as if I was going for a sleigh ride in my dreams. Early Christmas...One more...the painting inside the room. It's a peacock painting. Hotel's name is already The Royal Peacock and the painting inside the room is a peacock painting. No wonder it's called The Royal Peacock. But no..I didn't come out looking or acting like a peacock.

A sleigh ride in my dream on a sleigh looking bed

The view of the entire room. Can only fit 1 person.

The door, the bathroom door and the wardrobe. The bathroom door looks like a food cupboard's door ...and it has no lock. You just have to open like any other cupboard and close it like any other cupboard.

Here is the signature painting. A peacock.

The next day, I moved to the official hotel for my stay. Ibis Singapore on Bencoolen. The 1st thing that came into my mind when I came across the word Bencoolen was Phileo's Hotel 81. This hotel....kinda made no justice to what they advertise. At all. Before I flew in, I was browsing through the website and the pictures are like ...so tempting and luxury and nice. But the moment I stepped in, I was speechless. It was really a basic standard room. I mean, my peacock hotel is not as basic as this. This hotel has a doorless wardrobe, no dressing table, the minibar is like ...doesn't look like a minibar at all. Oh...one more thing. The mattress is really hard. It's like sleeping on pieces of wood. If I had to pay for all this...I would rather stay at peacock. At least the bed looks nice. The mattress was slightly soft. Although the building looks ancient but hell...I like antiques.

So this is the front view. A table and a so-called sofa

View of the entire room. Never trust pictures the hotel posted on their website. They're deceiving

The bathroom

The TV. Amazingly, the hotel has branded the TV with the name of the hotel.

The two single bed. So close to each other that you can simply touch the other bed.

The wardrobe without a door

Oh well...looking at all this, I miss my bed and my mattress already. And I can't wait to go home and sleep on my bed and my mattress. Can't wait to go back home tomorrow....

Chapter 31

It's 1st of July today and I guess it's time for me to sit down and start thinking what have I done for the past 6 months and what have I achieved for the past 6 months before I start to pen down my chapter 31 end of this month.

Well...all I can say is that life has it's ups and downs. I started off with a very rocky start. The nasty breakup and everything and I found out that the thing never actually happened and all. It was heartbreaking and I thought I could never stand up and walk straight ahead again. But I had friends who gave me their support continuously up til today and I really appreciate it. Also, I had my 2nd father who nags at me non-stop and tried to plant that the bastarda was only using me. I really really appreciate it.

Enough of the achy breaky heart, I also started job taking over from Ai Sze. Not my cup of tea, I must say but I had to do it because it's something I'm good at. But I survived until today. Despite everything. And...I must say this. I've been with my company for 1 year last 1st of June. So...yay!!

Another more thing which I can say I so-called achieve, I managed to clear off all my credit card oustanding. So...I'm officially cardless and I'm no longer a slave to the plastic money. Having paying everything in cash is so much better than having plastic money. It feels so good and the burden on my head feels lifted up high after all that. Now, sleeping at night is so much better than the previous months.

So, after all that, I guess I can start writing my Chapter 31. I don't know what is going to happen in Chapter 31. Whether or not it's going to be something interesting? Or something surprising... I don't know. We just have to wait and see what happens next. One thing I know for sure, the beginning of Chapter 31 is very much the same like any other chapters.

Entourage

I often wonder what would everyone think of entourage? Good? Bad? Hassle? I have a quite interesting story that I just need to write it down. I found it rather amusing.

Yesterday late evening as I was driving home from work, suddenly I heard the rider's siren from behind. That was along the KL-Seremban highway. You know how busy that highway is all the time. And then the rider kept telling all the drivers who are on the 3rd lane to move to the 1st lane. And there's this Myvi who was on the 3rd lane trying to move into the 1st lane but somehow couldn't make it through. So the uncle kept driving on the 2nd lane. 1 by 1 of the rider kept signalling for the uncle to move out from the 2nd lane but he somehow didn't budge. 2nd entourage came and the uncle was still in the 2nd lane. It's either he did not understand the signal or he just couldn't be bothered. I mean we paid for the roadtax as well, why should I bow down at you. Who the hell do you think you are? The Sultan? If it was the Sultan, I would understand that I need to clear off the road. But if you're just a commoner like me, why would I even bother?

So the uncle stayed on the 2nd lane until 3 entourages passed by then only he moved over. I was driving on the 1st lane all the time looked at the uncle and was really amused by how he stayed on the 2nd lane and he was the ONLY car on the 2nd lane. All the other cars has already moved to the 1st lane. Whoever you are uncle, I really salute you.

You know, I've been staying in a house which faces the highway, everyday I would see entourage passed by. And imagine this. The queue at the toll plaza was super long and then suddenly along came the rider and the entourage cutting all the queues. Wonder how would the rest of the drivers feel? I know how I would feel.

Old time favourite - Flerk

Image by babe_kl via Flickr

The last time I had this was ........ I lost count but it has been a while. Some might find eating worms a sadistic habit but I grew up eating this. I remember when I was a little girl, my late babeh would go and chop down the sago tree to look for this yummies. And I must tell you this. These worms doesn't come everyday. They normally have a season for this.

Way of cooking ... you may barbeque this, you may stir fry it. Up to you how you wish to cook it. My old time favourite way ... barbeque it. I used to play with it before babeh end their lives. These worms can bite, mind you. Oh...did I say that it contains lots of fats. I mean LOTS of fats. I remember I ate these worms too much until I vomitted during the night.

One more thing you should know about this....these worms doesn't come cheap. The last time I saw it in Sunday Market, they sold it like 20cents for each worm. That was years ago. So right now, expect some increase in the price.

Whatever people say about this worms, sadistic habit or not, I'm proud to say that I grew up eating local delicacies as this. Even brother dearest doesn't get the chance to eat it. This kind of food will soon be forgotten because what I heard right now, there are less sago tree being planted. Either that, or people don't know how to eat it.

Kedei Miak Sarawak

Image by awhiffoflemongrass via Flickr

Yesterday as I was sitting and lazying around the living room watching TV and blogging and twittering, I suddenly thought of something. Since Sharon asked me to think of a business plan and I really missed my favourite local Sarawak food, I was thinking why not the both of us open up a cafe and serve authentic Sarawak food. Besides, the Sarawak food here in KL are really overpriced. What we want is a reasonably priced and cosy environment. Maybe if this goes all well, then we make it into a restaurant.

Menu... we'll be serving everything local from the infamous Laksa to ayam pansoh to 'Ikan masak terong asam' to local desert, my old time favourite Kuih Selorot.

Cook... the both of us need to look for someone who can really cook without losing the authenticity of the food.

Well...that is all just a plan. Hopefully it will come through.

Donate a Kidney .... Save a Life

I must write about this. It's a true and compelling story about an old friend from school.

Last month when I had a small gathering with Joyce, Sharon, Remy and Lina, I was shock when I heard what happened to one of our friends. I was told that she has kidney failure. Both kidneys. And now, she has to go for dialysis to get her kidney cleaned up. Imagine, she's only 31 and she had to suffer so much.

Therefore, I'm appealing to anyone and everyone out there, please do your part to save a life. Donate a kidney ... save a life.




Dewi, I hope it's not too late for me to say I hope you get well soon. My prayers are with you, my friend.

Great song for a great movie

Linkin Park is back with their new song for Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. Awesome song. Awesome group. Awesome music video. I heard the whole album already and it was awesome as well. But I'd like to share the theme song. Linkin Park ROCKS!!

No Boundaries - Who's version is better

Now that American Idol is finally over. But still people are still fussing about who should be the winner. I personally don't really care much who is the winner. What I do care is the winning song. Who sings the winning song better? Adam Lambert or Kris Allen? Personally, I think that song was made for Adam's voice. Kris's voice didn't really reach the high notes. Perhaps Kara wrote that song base on Adam's voice. I don't know. I only know that I like Adam's version. So...enjoy...

Song I'm listening to right now

I'm really into Daughtry's new song right now. I think his new album is really awesome. Oh.. to those who share the same opinion as I am, please vote for them on VH1. Til then ... xoxo

This is Me

Thailand food that anyone must NOT miss whenever they go there:

1) Mango with sticky rice - It's glutinous rice with coconut milk poured on top of it and served with sweet mango.

2) Green curry - The curry is not as green as the name. Try it. The taste is authentic.

3) Pandan Chicken - Marinated chicken chunks wrapped up in pandan leaves and then fry.

4) Tom Yum Kung - MUST try this. The taste...ORIGINAL (hot and sour blend really really nice)

5) Som Tum - Another MUST try especially those who never had papaya salad.

6) Pad Thai - Thai style 'Char Kueh Tiaw'. Just have to try it out

 

* Recommendation is based on my opinion.

I support SPCA

Let us all hand in hand give our furry friends a better home. Never abuse them coz they are also God's greatest creation like us.

Help to Save Life

Let us all help those who need it, shall we?

Plans to celebrate my 31st birthday

Next month, I'll turn 31. I was thinking of making it a memorable one. Something I always wanted to do. Something different. I was thinking of celebrating in Bangkok. Take a few days off and just kick back and relax, eat delicious exotic Thailand food. What do you think? Cool? Awesome?

Summer Blockbuster 2009

Summer is the time when all the long awaited movie comes out. I had a chance to watch Angels and Demons a day after the opening and I have to admit that the movie made me feel tired. Tired as in the movie moves too fast. Chasing and chasing and chasing. But I can say that the movie deserves a thumbs up. I simply love the location . Vatican City and around Rome. I can only wish I could go there one day. And the churches ... they are really breathtakingly magnificent.

Another movie I'm looking forward to, Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. I remember I used to skip any co-curricular activity on Saturday morning just to watch Transformers on TV when I was a kid. Back then, cartoons looks so much better. And then when suddenly Hollywood decided to do a movie out of it, everyone waited with anticipation. When the 1st movie came out, every single guy were drooling over Megan Fox (as expected). Moviewise, superb. Now that the 2nd movie is coming out, again everyone is waiting for anticipation. I watched the trailer over and over again (thanks to Youtube) and the more I watch it, the more excited I become.



One more movie I'm really really looking forward to .... G.I. Joe. I mean....G.I. Joe...the G.I. Joe. Another favourite cartoon when I was little. Can't wait for August when it's due to come out.

Introduction

The last time I had a blog, it was a ...how should I call it? A failure? Until recently, cousin dearest started his brand new blog made me suddenly had the urge to write again. It's been a while since I last write. Not sure if I still have the 'golden touch' again. But hell...let's give it another try, shall we?

Let's talk about everything under the sun, under the moon, under the rain, under the haze .... anything. From things I truly love, things I truly hate ... anything and everything. So, let's start talking ...