Angels Cry

Found this song after lunch just now...the lyrics is exactly the same as my situation right now and I actually cried listening to it.








Lyrics | Mariah Carey Lyrics | Angels Cry Lyrics

What's in my heart

Last Monday was what supposed to be our 5th month anniversary but everything is just gone now. My heart is still not healed. I doubt it can ever be heal. Even if it takes my whole life. I still find myself crying whenever I'm alone. I still find myself crying to sleep. How can I ever be happy again? How can I find back my old self? Will I ever find that back? Will I ever see the sun shine again?

I don't know what else to do anymore. This time I don't know if I can ever stand up and walk again. I can put a brave face in front of everybody. I can pretend I am alright. But the truth is, I'm not. I'm hurting inside. Why is life so unfair? Why can't I get the happiness I deserve? What did I do wrong in my entire life that I don't deserve to have some happiness?

I often wish she would just leave me alone last time. That she would just accept his rejection and leave the both of us alone. That she should just focus on her own family and leave him alone. That she won't be such a bitch. But like what Babah said, she is what she's made off.

Everything that happen right now, everything I'm going through is like deja vu. It's like history is repeating itself all over again. I'm wearing our ring around my neck as a symbol to give me strength, to give me hope, to help me be strong but I can't. I tried. God knows how much I tried. I prayed and prayed until I cried in my prayers that things will go back to the way it used to be. Acu said God will help those who help themselves. Please God, give him back to me. Soften his heart and guide him back home. That is all I ask from You. I have got nothing else already. Please hear my prayers, O Lord.

I don't want you to go

Found this song among my cds yesterday. Originally sang by Piolo Pascual but Kyla did an equal job for this song. The lyrics...needless to say.






Lyrics | Piolo Pascual lyrics - I Don't Want You To Go lyrics

My life's a curse

Have anyone ever tell you that sometimes it's too late to regret everything has ever happen to you? Maybe it is true. By the time you realise the truth, it is already far too late to turn things around. That's what happened to me. I think my life is a curse. I can't settle down with anyone without getting hurt or heartbroken.

Questions about what happened still plays in my head over and over again. Why is she doing this to me? What have I done to her that she keep doing this to me? Does she feel peace everytime she insults me? Does she find satisfaction when she's trying to break someone's relationship? Just because he left her when he found out she's married, she thought that no one else should get him as well because she couldn't? Now, it is officially over between the both of us, she must be feeling on top of the world.

Although questions still plays in my head, I came to realise the truth. But it's too late for me to turn back. It's really too late for me to say "I'm sorry." He was telling me the truth all along and I failed to see it because I was so afraid. I was blinded by my fear. The fear from the previous relationship with Ady still sticks in my head. Those words which he told Aida sticks in my head till now and I was afraid that I might have to walk through the paths I walked before.

I guess it's too late for me to redeem myself to him again. The day when he said it's over was the day I felt I rather die than live without a purpose. Every night I asked myself why is life so unfair? What have I done wrong in my life that I had to go through all of this? Why do God lead me straight into his arms and let him fill my life with so much love just to find out He's taking him away from me?

I don't know how to go on through my days from today. I don't know how to tell my family that it's completely over between the both of us. Daddy will be furious for sure. He never wanted me to come back. If I hadn't beg him to let me come back, I don't think I'll ever be back here. All the time, I've been locking myself in the room and cried until I have no more tears left to cry. Then, suddenly I stop praying. I don't know what is the purpose for me to pray anymore. Looking at the ring and my anklet he gave back makes it even sadder. Everytime I looked at it, I had to tell myself it's really over. It's really over. There's nothing left for me. There's no more space for me in his heart. He has let me go and I am back to the place where I was before we found each other back last year.

I got lost too far away. I went astray for so long. I need to find the way back myself and I hope I can find back the missing girl he fell in love with 15 years ago. The one everybody knew. That girl has gone missing for a very long time. I hope when I found her back, I will have peace in my life.

L.O.V.E sucks. L.O.V.E bites

Last Saturday was 1 week after our separation. I thought it will still hurt but I don't feel anything. I thought I will still be crying but I guess I have no more tears to cry. I guess this is really the end. I'm picking up the pieces and move on. Throughout the entire week, I've been thinking and saw the things that hurt me most. Then on Saturday night, I made up my mind. I'm very tired of thinking.

Memories will always remain in my mind. Those good times we had together. Those conversations we had together. It will always be with me.




I will always remember the day he sang this song to me. Now, it will be just a memory.

Stop crying your heart out

I found this song earlier and the lyrics just got me on the spot. It's a cover made by Leona Lewis from Oasis song. I have yet to hear the original version but I like this song and the lyrics as well.

Stop Crying Your Heart Out lyrics found at elyricsworld.com

Fight for love

A meaningful lyric...







Lyrics | Cheryl Cole Lyrics | Fight For This Love Lyrics

Always be my baby

I heard this song on the radio this morning on my way to work. It's been a very long time since I last heard this song. Though I fell in love with Mariah Carey's version long before David Cook sang it on American Idol, I love both version equally...








Lyrics | Mariah Carey Lyrics | Always Be My Baby Lyrics

Keep holding on

This  morning I woke up and I had this song playing in my head. After all the episodes I went through, I think this song is perfect for everything. It's all about looking at things positively and giving hope.










Lyrics | Avril Lavigne Lyrics | Keep Holding On Lyrics